Health issues

I am sick: psychologically sick. Perhaps,Physically sick too. Something is very wrong with my gastric. I have been burping all day long. Not like those people who burp only once after meal, i can burp a lot a lot a lot of times! Be it, before meals of after. I can even burp when i get up early in the morning without eating anything. I feel bloated when i don't even consume any food. Momo said she has came across this article about people who keep burping. Then she told me about the reasons behind it etc. So, she told me that people who eat a lot of bread, noddles or things that made of flour tend to burp more. Also, these are the unhealthy people. Apparently, she is talking about me. lol. Momo says she is going to bring me to go for a health screening soon. So, let's shall see what the outcome will be. Back to the psychological part. Did i mention that i am very conscious about my weight? I think those closer ones will surely know it. I can never be satisfied with my weight. I think is getting more serious now. I weigh myself everyday. Yes, everyday single day. If i gain weight, no matter how much is it, 1kg, 500g , 250g I would feel extremely stressed and sad. Then, i will keep exercising until i feel that it is enough. I would feel very guilty after i have eaten. Full of regrets. To others, i may not have eaten a lot , but to me i feel that i am full, i have eaten a lot, and i need to stop eating. Take today as an example alright. Let me share with you what i have eaten today. I woke up late today, thus i didn't have any breakfast.

Branch: Two pieces of bread, one spread with kaya and one was spread with nutella.

              Half packet of crackers.

Dinner: Waffle with ice cream.

So yeah. This is it. It seems like i don't eat much but the meal itself contains much more calories. You should agree with me . Right? I don't eat rice. I hate eating rice. If i am given a choice to choose, i will never want to eat rice. That's just me. Also, whenever i look into the mirror, i feel fat. I have this mindset that all people around are skinnier than me, even momo is skinny. It's my illusion or what? Am i really sick or just plain fat? 42kg, 153cm. I want a 40.  You shall be the judge. It's kind of ridiculous to type these things here, but yeah, who cares. Anyway, on a brighter note, this upcoming week will be a fruitful one. So many outings and stuff with the fam and girls. Hopefully, nothing spoils the plans.

No worries, i wont become those anorexic girls.

Those are just too extreme. Some pictures to show here! Most pictures are from: http://cool.cugiz.com/2011/06/anorexic-girls-photos.html