Thursday, July 21, 2016

It takes two hands to clap

Too much going on and going wrong. It's really time to let go of those people who do not value you. All relationships are about give and take, I feel like i am always giving and not receiving as much. Giving comes in different forms. I am always there to listen, to provide support and to make the effort to get together. Not always, but most of the time. I am completely fine with doing these. But we need to work towards a balance. I want to give AND receive. Come on, who doesn't like receiving? I am not the best daughter, sister, friend, teacher and most probably not gonna to be a good girlfriend judging from how i have treated my dates. In fact, i feel like i am the worst person ever. I am temperamental, stubborn and at times, unreasonable. But it is undeniable that i am always genuine. I genuinely wanted everyone to be happy with what i have given to and with the love and care i showered on them. I want the other parties to reciprocate the same but sadly most of them often dont. Not saying that i want them to do exactly what i have done, but not to the extent that you just take and do not make a effort to give. So much of saying they are busy, they are tired, they have no time.. but hey, the next thing we knew was them hanging out with other people. If you were to receive a 2 word birthday wish while others get long ass blog/Instagram post, how would you feel? I am just citing an example, do not take it too seriously. I must be really crazy if i were to fuss over this. Okay maybe just tad bit of jealousy going on over here. Anyways, the main point is, it all comes down to priority. Maybe i am just not as important to them as how they are to me. Or maybe i expected too much from them and when they failed to meet the expectations, i sense the gap. This is probably why i feel the imbalance in the relationships. It might be me, it might be you.. I don't know.
I do not write well so please do not read into my words. Things are not all what they seem to be.

Coney Island


Dairy Farm nature park & Bukit Timah Railway




Macritchie treetop



Bukit Timah Summit & Fort Canning Park





Second. 


Impromptu drinking @ zouk 


Art Science Museum







The usuals


/with the childhood buddy





Conquered my fear of dogs!



Project approach 2016


A little dose of sweetness


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Birthday Lunch with the July babies



Sunday, March 27, 2016

Bangkok 12Mar-15Mar 2016

Have decided to make some changes to my blog! Made some small changes on some of the fonts and have also added a music playlist. Those are my current favourite songs! Have been listening to this singer, Bii's songs so much lately. His voice is so soothing and nice! Actually, i used to love mandarin songs a lot before i got in touch with kpop. I did not idolize anyone, but i really liked certain songs! Songs from Jay Chou, S.H.E, Mayday and many more were usually on my Ipod's playlist. I don't listen to those songs that much anymore after i got into the Kpop bandwagon. Ironically, i am not really into kpop now. Hahaha. I mean, i still do listen to Korean songs and watch a few Korean dramas here and there, but i dont "chase” after idols anymore. Yup, English and Mandarin songs are my type of things now. So anyways, Last week or rather, the week before, I went Bangkok with my mum, Twinny and her mum. It was really an enjoyable trip although there were times i was pissed when the mummies ganged up and badmouthed us. Mums being mums, aunties being aunties, they can really talk non-stop. Hahaha. Overall, i had fun and i am really thankful for twinny to make this trip possible. The trip has allowed me to get out of the mundane and stressful working environment a little while and to spend some quality time with my mum!

Day 1- Was eminently tiring as we got up at 3am in the morning. 


Zhen de hen Chao!

Lemon tea hotel has the most efficient staff!

Chatuchak Weekend market. The weather was hot as fuck!

Had some Thai food for dinner on the day. A place which our taxi uncle recommended!


Day2. The longest day! We had some Traditional Thai breakfast before embarking our journey!










The journey to get to the place that we wanted to go was very long. 

Railway station Market!







Floating Market!






Chocolate Ville! The place is super pretty! A must-go-to place if you are at Bangkok!



















In the car, making our way to watch...




Asiatique. Didn't spend much time there as we were all very tired and grumpy after all the activities we had during the first half of the day. Nonetheless, Its quite a pretty place too!



Make up was on point that day! Pardon me for all the selfies!




Pratunam Morning Market and Platinum mall on Day 3! Bought so much stuff! Could not feel my hands anymore after carrying and lugging back all the bags of stuff!



Something sweet 

Day4. Bye bye bangkok! Till we meet again!



Holycow with bestf the other day

Sneak Peak. Guess where did we go?!

Oh yes, we came home from bkk to withered plants! Mummy was so upset! Her plants withered and all the household chores were not done. She exploded like a volcano! Soon after, i exploded too. Bear with me for this little rant here. It all started with me merely asking my youngest sis, M to pack her stuff. I'll just call her M as by just having a name appearing in my posts irks me. We bought many clothes in bkk and i was nice to give her some of those. I asked her to try, and if she wants it she can keep it. If not, she might want to give those to Er mei or return it to me. Simple isn't it? But no, she had to leave piles of those clothes on the chair, on the floor and on the bed! Before this, the room was already in a mess because i was unpacking my luggage and at the same time clearing some of my unwanted clothes out. And there she was, creating more mess. Obviously, i demanded her to clean up. (as usual, she was busy with her phone =.=) I am not saying that being the eldest, i have the right to demand my sisters to do things. But in this case, i was not at fault right? She came in only after calling her many times. She has gotten very irritated by then, obviously. She came in to the room with that fking black long face and fucked up attitude. Before i could even talk, she shouted "These are not mine right?" In my heart, i was like, Hello bitch? Were you trying to be funny or what? Don't you have better excuses or ways to get away from the fact that you have to clean up? I rebutted, for goodness sake. The next thing i knew was, vulgarities blurted out at me. She fucking crossed my limits. Who is she to scold vulgarities right at my face. Such a disrespectful brat, my goodness. The most ridiculous part was that when i asked her,  how dare she used vulgarities on people elder than her, her answer was "you guys also use what" WHAT THE FUCK?! DID SHE EVEN HEAR WHAT SHE WAS SAYING?! Yes, i admitted to her, we do use it. But we use it on different situations! Not right at someone, not right in front of my mum, not at someone so close to me! Of course, she didn't gave in. She rolled her eyes at me, pulled a long face, continued to murmur while cleaning up. At that point, i could not suppress my anger anymore. I went towards her, pulled her hair, pushed her and she fell on the bed. She was shocked. I didn't care. I continued to throw stuff at her. She did not retaliate. Eventually, i stopped after gotten very tired with all the throwing and scoldings. lol. I told her not to talk to me from that day onward. We are doing a very good job. It has been two weeks since we last talked. That's not all. She still has cheek to use my stuff without asking my permission! This is one of my pet peeves, she knows about it. Not like i am being petty and do not allow her to use my stuff  after we fought. She is really driving me nuts! She really... 4 letters for her. nbcb