Siqi's Daily Happenings,: It takes two hands to clap

Too much going on and going wrong. It's really time to let go of those people who do not value you. All relationships are about give and take, I feel like i am always giving and not receiving as much. Giving comes in different forms. I am always there to listen, to provide support and to make the effort to get together. Not always, but most of the time. I am completely fine with doing these. But we need to work towards a balance. I want to give AND receive. Come on, who doesn't like receiving? I am not the best daughter, sister, friend, teacher and most probably not gonna to be a good girlfriend judging from how i have treated my dates. In fact, i feel like i am the worst person ever. I am temperamental, stubborn and at times, unreasonable. But it is undeniable that i am always genuine. I genuinely wanted everyone to be happy with what i have given to and with the love and care i showered on them. I want the other parties to reciprocate the same but sadly most of them often dont. Not saying that i want them to do exactly what i have done, but not to the extent that you just take and do not make a effort to give. So much of saying they are busy, they are tired, they have no time.. but hey, the next thing we knew was them hanging out with other people. If you were to receive a 2 word birthday wish while others get long ass blog/Instagram post, how would you feel? I am just citing an example, do not take it too seriously. I must be really crazy if i were to fuss over this. Okay maybe just tad bit of jealousy going on over here. Anyways, the main point is, it all comes down to priority. Maybe i am just not as important to them as how they are to me. Or maybe i expected too much from them and when they failed to meet the expectations, i sense the gap. This is probably why i feel the imbalance in the relationships. It might be me, it might be you.. I don't know.

I do not write well so please do not read into my words. Things are not all what they seem to be.