Siqi's Daily Happenings,: Trust is the hardest thing to find but the easiest to lose.

A lot of things are running through my head now. Literally right now. I am so disappointed with the world we are living in. By doing no evil to others and they will do you the same thing? Holy shit. They don't. People are just so selfish. They just don't spare a thought for you. Yeah, we can't deny the fact that humans are naturally selfish, but there are still a small group of people out there who are less selfish, and are less demanding. So why cant these people make an effort to become less selfish then? These are just things which are inexplicable, i guess? And yeah, was having some h2h talk with twinny yesterday. She is going through a bad patch now, and hopefully everything is gonna to be alright. We mentioned something about trust and stuff? What is trust? I think, the only person you can trust is only you and yourself. Even your closest friends or even family tell lies, break their promises, doing things that disappoint you. Thus, i keep tons of secrets to myself, so that no one knows and no one will betray me. But it's hard to bottle up everything. Ultimately, people like me who are not strong nor resilient enough have to tell someone about it. Who to tell, What to say, are they trustable? People don't write on their face whether are they trustable or not. This is when you will have to make the choice. I am always the very gullible girl in everyone's eyes. I believed in the stupidest thing. I choose to believe. I choose to trust. I choose to believe that no one is really that evil or bad. However, as time passes, with those unpleasant things, with those shitty people i have met, have proven me that i am wrong and i shouldn't trust anyone too easily. Back to the point, how are you going to justify whether to trust or not to trust? I will never have a answer to this question. Life is just like this.

*Have gotten my result this morning and is a total piece of shit. Arghh, i am so going to have a cold shower now, if not i think i that i will explode and go bonkers. ciao.

Went for some shitty briefing with jacq.